Week 4 & 5

Week 4 was zero. Week 5 was a 1 pound gain.

I'm hitting that point where I lose the drive to do this. It seems there's something that always comes up to interfere with my goal - Mikey's surgeries, travel for work, sickness - you name it.

Okay, I admit it. I want to lose the weight, but I don't want to work for it or change my eating habits. Pretty bad, huh? But, I'm not willing to do the next miracle cure or give up either.

It's just that, from time to time, I get in this place where I'm really pissed that I have to work so hard to get every pound off. I get tired of hating the way I look and feel, and long for the day where I don't feel that way anymore. I know that this isn't going to happen overnight. The first 60 pounds took a year to come off. I think it's just that I'm so angry than 30 pounds of that came back. Yes, it was due to preganancy. Yes, it was only 30 pounds this time as I gained 60 with the first kid. Yes, it's only been a couple of years that I've carried the 30 - it was 10 for the oldest.

I know all of this, but it still drives me crazy that I'm having to re-conquer previously won territory.

Now it sounds like I'm whinning.

Maybe I got it out of my system.

Week #3 Results - A Half Pound More

Lost a half pound this week. Not the stellar results I would have liked, but between a week of travel and being sick as a dog (still) I'm pretty happy. I'm home this week so the goal is to try and stay on track as much as possible. It's hard to get a habit set when you travel so much.

Even thought is "only" a half pound, it's still a loss. When I look back at my first NS journey, I averaged a pound a week. Some weeks were awesome, a lot were just a half pound, and still more were zero. I'll take a half pound over a zero. ;)

Week #2 Results

No loss. No gain.

A couple of noteworthy things this week:

• NS food arrived about mid-way through the week. Still trying to adjust.
• I'm traveling.
• All 4 of us got sick this week and I've been on meds that have made my stomach VERY upset. So, eating healthy was not top priority.
• Had to shorten week by 1 days. I realized that with my travel schedule, I'd never be home on weigh-in day.

So, all of that factored into the equation, I'm cool with zero. Now, if I can just get past the sinus infection and stomach virus, maybe I'll have a chance.

Week #1 Results - 3 pounds down!

WOO HOO! A three pound loss this week! And, I did it without the food (still hasn't arrived - grrr). I'm shooting for another three this week, so we'll see how that goes.

This week I focused on re-familiarizing myself with the NS plan, stocking up on healthy choices, and just getting my body ready for exercise again. I did manage to get in a 2-mile walk this week, and I plan to get in more exercise this week.

I'm ready to be done with this once and for all. I'm off to a great start!

Starting Again

Okay, I've given it a lot of thought since my last post and have decided it is time to begin again. This time will be different because I know I can do it - I've done it before. I think it's taken me this long to let go of the fact that I gained weight back. You know what? It happened, and it is what it is.

I know that when I was at 179.5 I felt better - sexier - more confident. I felt this even though I wasn't at my goal weight. They way I'm looking at it now is that I can only improve from where I am now - 210.

You know, it's hard to see that 210 again, but I'm trying to remember I saw 250 at one point in my life. So, while it's hard to know that I gained over 30 pounds back, I do take comfort that I still kept 40 pounds off.

So, I begin anew. I've ordered NS food off of ebay - about 6 weeks worth. I'll be honest - I'm not looking forward to the food again, but it darn well worked for me before, so I know it will work again. My plan is to eat the food for 6 weeks and then go back to NS on my own. I'm also going to track WW points while I'm on NS. Who knows - maybe the reason I've been struggling with WW is because my points are too high? Anyway, I know that WW is the plan for the long haul, but I've got to get a good kick start.

My food hasn't arrived yet, so this week will be about NS without the food. Wish me luck.

Another Year Bites the Dust

Wow, it has been over a year since my last post. Where did the time go? Oh yeah, work, baby, work, travel, work, new business, work . . .

I do find it interesting that this seems to be the time of year I start to think about weight loss again. I start looking around at all the plans - Weight Watchers, Jenny, Nutrisystem - trying to decide if I should take the plunge again. When I did NS the first time I started in March. Very interesting.

The good news is that, in this year, I've managed to maintain my weight. So, it's nice to know that I can maintain once I finally reach goal. But, on the down side, there's another year gone where I didn't take the opportunity to finally get to where I want to be.

So, here I sit today, trying to decide if I'm ready. I've had many false starts this year, and I don't want another one. This time I want to finish, and, if I can't get there, I don't want to start yet.

Week ?

I'm not even sure what week it is, and I guess it really doesn't matter. The important thing is that I'm still moving forward, despite everything that is going on around me. When I weighed in this morning I was pleased to see 204.5. While I'm very anxious to get back under 200 again, it was a thrill to see a number lower than 205 on the scale.

I'm especially proud of this because I've been stress eating this week. With Mikey's surgery (see Michael's Site for more info), it's been hard to keep control. Fortunately surgery #1 is now behind us and we can focus on getting well.

I'll keep it brief today as I am exhausted from the last few day's events. That, and there's a baby that wants his mama . . . I have to go find her - LOL!